Interdisciplinary

f.r.i.e.n.d.s 

see no-one told you life was gonna be this way 

(clap clap clap clap). it's true. they didn't. and i'm really flipping glad about that. Imagine going into this whole massive big adventure knowing what is in store? i wouldn't want to, personally. i'd be too scared. but that's the stay-at-home-mom in me; my inner Aquarius would have major FOMO, and do it anyway. thank god for that. I never saw myself being strong enough to get through the first term without developing scurvy or rickets or something. i guess that's sort of an achievement? ta-daaaa...?

your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's DOA

This doesn't really need much explaining, to be honest. it's just very relevant. a bitter truth pill to choke on. haha. 

it's like you're always stuck in second gear, when it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.....

Rosie.... stop comparing yourself to your friends- you are valid enough as you are- is an important truth pill i have taken this year. Doesn't mean it's been easy, though. A lot has happened, and i do feel like i'm waiting for my life to start. Turning 20 was a major step for me- i felt like i was both beginning and ending something- missing out and simultaneously wasting a fast-disappearing opportunity. I vowed i would do my twenties properly. I owe it to myself- I won't waste it wallowing on my mental health and being self-pitying, or comfortable. I am trying to kick-start my life now. Starting with... making work i feel proud of. 

but... i'll be there for you 

whether it is a little bit of stressful friends tension, biiiiig deadlines that i'm trying my ultimate hardest to reach, or just my flatmate has eaten all my damn grapes again,  f.r.i.e.n.d.s has got ma back. almost every night, i fall asleep to the dulcet tones of Ross' whining and Monica's horrible screeching 'i know!'. And...it feels like home. This is a routine i have always had and done, much to my mother's dismay, constant worrying about my 'quality of sleep' (she's probably right). Sleep is a major part of who i am as a person- only figuring out recently that i am partially lazy due to an under-active thyroid, however this doesn't fix all my problems-  Not Changing my Bad Habits of late nights, oversleeping and junk food leaves me at a very sleepy non-motivated state, 24/7. This impacts my practice. In fact, this almost forms my practice- a rush of adrenaline near a deadline is what i seem to be thriving off, and then i come out wondering why my half-formed ideas and undeveloped plans are getting me lower grades than my talented, actually hard working consistent peers. 

I know it doesn't really directly relate to my practice and the work i create. But, Friends does have aspects that i treasure and aim to recreate in my work

• storytelling and consistent narrative
• humour
• character
• consistency
• nostalgia
• comfort
• bad humour
• socialising, people studying
• matt le blanc
• the chance to study what makes people laugh, and what makes people themselves
• reeeeally bad humour
• and real life friendships that grow and are complex

 haha. 

SO what has my experience with friends taught me?

• procrastination is NOT a part of who i am, it's a bad habit i need to change... i think...
• personal comfort and feeling home in a strange city is very important to feeling yourself
• spending time on your own is okay 
• american humour is shit
• nostalgia and story-telling is a key influence on my work
• routine is okay
• my life would be completely different if i hadn't ever escaped home
• don't get too much sleep or else you wont make any bloody work ever 

sorry i kinda used this as a therapy session

whoops

peace out, 

Roy xx